My oh my has time really flown by. Now that I think about it I've gone through many trials and tribulations in my life to the point where I ask, " How on earth did I end up here?" Let me tell you if it weren't for those trials, I would have never became the person I am today. Life for me had started out rough, starting with having young parents, and living in the not so best places when I was a kid. From ages newborn to 17 years old, I have lived nothing but a pennyless life. As I was growing up, I remember listening to the heartaching arguments that my parents would always fight about, "How are we going to afford this?" When are we going to live in a house, rather than this dump?" "This is all your fault!" "You're the reason we're in this mess!" I've seen it all, and heard any possible ongoing rant there can possibly be. It got old. All along I've learned to just tune everything out and escape from any disastrous thoughts and negativity surrounding me. I'm not saying that my parents are terrible people, because I knew they loved each other, and I knew they loved me. They tried everything possible to give me a roof over my head and food on my plate. The thing was that they were very young, and didnt get to live there life, and had hurried into the life of intense responsibility by being irresponsible. I always observed the life that they had lived and always remembered thinking that I never want to be in that same position. I wanted to live a life of happiness, and be successful in each accomplishment. The point of this blog is that I've seen and have gone through a great deal of issues, but despite all of it, I still made it through. I look at what I promised to myself: To never live a life uncomfortably, to accomplish my goals and become successful. Without the many people who have touched my life and the support and love they have shown me, I think it would have been a lot more difficult. Luckily, thats not the case. Instead, I have a family who loves me and supports me and prays for me in my accomplishments, they cannot stress enough how much they are so proud of what I have succeeded in. I have friends who have been there for as long as I can remember, and without the irresponsible mistakes we've made, and illegal actions we proceeded with (long story), I would have no memories to pass on. They are the ones who see me for me :D They take me away on adventures that leave me in relief by the end of the day, because no matter how bad of a day or experience I have had, they always find a way to make sure I am back on my feet. I have a guy in my life, he has showed me how much he really does love me. Let me tell you though...I have no idea why he loves me? He has put up with so much of my hassles, and unbelieveable actions and throughout everything, he sees me as me, he doesnt judge the way I am, and God knows I love him for that. My guy has taught me more than perhaps anyone I've ever known, and he has educated me in looking at different perspectives and in a life changing spectacle. When I am stressed, sad, upset, or even happy, he always finds some way to put a smile back on my face. I can honestly say I am very much in love with him. There is another reason why I am here today. GOD. If it weren't for God I know I'd be a lost soul. God has been there even before I was born, and he knew what kind of life I would live..how amazing is that?! Whenever I do ask myself, "How on earth did I get here?" "Why am I the person I am today"...I always trace back to knowing that God has continuously blessed me, and even in disguise. Whether I see it or not...Here I am because of Him. I see the people in my life and the love that they bestowe upon me.......and then I remember: "Every person, every trial and tribulation that got me to where I remain today, has been a blessing. And here I see LOVE. Why? There is a reason for everything.. as some always say. How can you not believe in God after all that? So here I stand, Here I am...Binnie :D
